shepoet

The world came to light, My heart felt alright, I thought it was right, But you killed the angel in me, You took me for granted, You betrayed my kindness, You stubbed my soul, You made me wicked, We had our moments, We had flaming chemistry, Yes we 'HAD' But we are done, We are the past. Now it is you,me...strangers On different pages, We can't build bridges, We are night and day. My love for you is dead, Desire disgusts me, You disgust me. You are dead to me.

You say I am beautiful, is it the wine, You think I am the best is it because I don't have a voice to whine, You are my rock, is it you also need support, Your eyes speak to my soul, will it forever do, Will tomorrow hold us,will today haunt us? When you will be sober will you still look at me this way, When you realize I am not perfect, will you still care. When my past comes back knocking, will you shield me from the knife, When everyone else judges me, will you still smile at me, Will you stand next to me, will you hold my hand ? I ask questions,you are silent, you just smile. I lean on you too much, you let me. I am weaker around you, you like that. I smile my pain out to you, Will you listen if I cry my joy to your ears, will you be quiet? Does it matter, Does it have to, Is it ok to be ok with not being ok, Is it ok to love someone you have never seen, I don't know or want to know. You have taught me to love, You have taught me to live, You have

Close to you I feel sound, Only with you I feel safe, You are my eyes in the dark, My cover in the sun. You are the light, I am the shadow. You judge me, not. You embrace my inane, You love my eyes, You see through me, You are the ocean. I am the tides. You hate seeing me sad, Yet you don't want me near, You want to be there for me, Yet you close your shells. You are the clouds. I am the rain. I care about you You care about me, You are my friend, Am I yours? You're my soul Let me touch your heart.

I wonder if she is okay, I hope she is, I wonder if he treats her right, I hope he does, I wonder if she forgot about me, I hope she did, Lie,I hope she never will. I hate that I miss her, I hate that my love for her still grows, I hate that I feel betrayed, Yet,I would still take a bullet for her. I hate myself for still loving her. Sorry have to let that out Nothing burns forever. Matchstick in seconds, Candle light in hours Paraffin light in hours, I hope this love won't too. But no knife cuts deeper, The tears dripping from my eyes  The raindrops speak the rest I am just a weak motherfucker. Her thoughts like an onion to my eye. I am not ok, I have never been. It has been years, Will it ever change? I cry,I think of her always. I cant help it especially when it rains, Can't control how I feel. I still and might love her forever.

So warm,your hands. So genuine, your smile. So gentle, your voice. "Thank you. I am lucky." We talk, about everything. We laughing.  A lot. Then you start coughing. Pain. I stop talking. Look at you pale. You whisper. "Sorry" "No.I am sorry" You smile. "It's okay" We stop talking. Silence. Death silence. Then the nurse tells me to leave. As I start walking, you cough. I look back. Your eyes. Watery. I come back. Hug. "Thank you for always being there.I love you" "Shh! Rest!" I Stop you. As I walk out, I feel a part of me leaving. I rush to my car. I get in. Sobbing. Pain. I am hopeful, of a miracle. I head home. Open my door. Phone call. And I hear your mum's sobbing voice. I drop to the floor. Pain.Anger.Tears. I lie on the floor. Helpless. Knock on the door. Our other pals. We head to the hospital. We find you lying down. Still. Your hands. So cold. My heart freezes. Gone. To

Give him your all or nothing, Make him your core and stop the crashing. Where did your crushing go, he is hurting. Why did you stop chasing, When did it all become appalling. He misses your hearting. Did he lose you to the rain, Desire no longer running in your vein, Or did you find a better train, To shelter your heart and to reign, You are to far way in this love terrain He is feeling lost, pain, plain, inane. Please explain. You can't look at him in the eye, The fire gone, the flames not nigh, Your touch, like for any other guy, You were one once, us, but now I. Tell where love he can buy, comply,try to stop your bye. You make him cry, your love well, dry. Claire,he needs your care. A loving glare. To end his despair. To wipe his tear. Touch his soul again, you are his pair. Repair, his heart. Answer his prayer. oh dear. Just be fair.

My tears washed your path, My blood painted your walls, My hands, your brush. My body your art. My heart your toy. My eyes, where are my eyes? You called me sweet names, You pulled me near, You whispered in my ear, You will always be here,       If only my head could hear. And my heart out of there. My Heart, where is my heart? You pulled me from misery, I followed you without inquiry, I thought my heart was heading to liberty, My pain would be history. Now I am here crying bitterly I wish I turned away and walked off quietly, Fickle this riddle: Friendship is such a needle.  Commital yet when it breaks, so brutal. Fickle,my heart hurt. I need to whistle. My emotions without a thought, you fiddle. Is it because I used to tipple and Gamble? I will tremble as I ramble through this  bramble , S cramble through this, and I will be ok when I reach my misery temple.

I watch as darkness kisses me goodbye. Our hands slowly letting go. We are departing. We are no more. The journey is over. I listen as you whisper my name amid sobbing. Tears streaming down our cheeks. You are sad. I am not. We have been friends this long. I feel as your heartbeat slows down. I feel your breathe fading off.                   I look into your eyes. Pain. Closed. Goodbye. Misery, my dearest friend. You are gone. I am grateful that you were there when I needed a friend. Misery, my solace. I am glad you insulated me, when I needed warmth. I have a new life. You will be remembered. You were. You have. You will. Be there. Good Bye. I will be ok. Don't find me.