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Help Me....Love me!

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He stops! He steps back....and drops the flashlight. He starts to cry and runs outside like he just saw a ghost. I want to run after him to hug him, To tell him that it is okay. Yes, to console him. Yes, the man who was about to kill me, Yes, the man who hits me for loving him. Yes, him that I have lost everything for. Yes, I know..I am stupid. Why do I stay you ask, Why am I this stupid you wonder. I will tell you... I will show you... I will explain. Because I am weak...he had made me. He owns my mind..heart and sadly decisions. He has made me feel like if I leave...he will die or kill me. And I feel like I have to stay to help him be human again, Should I? NO! But unless you are in my shoes..You will never know. You will never understand. And I know that. So please help me.... Not by judging me but by helping me love myself again. Not by disowning me but by embracing me. Help me help myself first. Help my heart heal, Help my mind recover. Help my sou

Set My Mind Free..

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He stands at the door pointing a flashlight on me, I am in the corner still scared of him, He calls my name...twice. He sounds angry yet concerned. I can't answer cause he will hear my sobs, And he will kill me...as he promised. He starts walking towards me, His heavy boots, strong on the wooden floor, Each step and I hear my mother's sob by my grave, He keeps calling my name, I can't answer cause he will hit me for having not answered earlier. And he will kill my soul too...like the others. He is now standing next to me, He shines the light on me, I am in his t-shirt and nothing else. The floor is wet...from the water he poured on me earlier. I am trying not to look up or breathe hard cause he will punish me, And he will kill my hope to ever see myself ...who he hates. "Bird, look at me."He whispers and crouches to touch my hair. I feel care in his voice and hear concern in his tone. I have a battle inside me...'Look!Don't!Look!Don&