shepoet

Close to you I feel sound, Only with you I feel safe, You are my eyes in the dark, My cover in the sun. You are the light, I am the shadow. You judge me, not. You embrace my inane, You love my eyes, You see through me, You are the ocean. I am the tides. You hate seeing me sad, Yet you don't want me near, You want to be there for me, Yet you close your shells. You are the clouds. I am the rain. I care about you You care about me, You are my friend, Am I yours? You're my soul Let me touch your heart.

I wonder if she is okay, I hope she is, I wonder if he treats her right, I hope he does, I wonder if she forgot about me, I hope she did, Lie,I hope she never will. I hate that I miss her, I hate that my love for her still grows, I hate that I feel betrayed, Yet,I would still take a bullet for her. I hate myself for still loving her. Sorry have to let that out Nothing burns forever. Matchstick in seconds, Candle light in hours Paraffin light in hours, I hope this love won't too. But no knife cuts deeper, The tears dripping from my eyes  The raindrops speak the rest I am just a weak motherfucker. Her thoughts like an onion to my eye. I am not ok, I have never been. It has been years, Will it ever change? I cry,I think of her always. I cant help it especially when it rains, Can't control how I feel. I still and might love her forever.

So warm,your hands. So genuine, your smile. So gentle, your voice. "Thank you. I am lucky." We talk, about everything. We laughing.  A lot. Then you start coughing. Pain. I stop talking. Look at you pale. You whisper. "Sorry" "No.I am sorry" You smile. "It's okay" We stop talking. Silence. Death silence. Then the nurse tells me to leave. As I start walking, you cough. I look back. Your eyes. Watery. I come back. Hug. "Thank you for always being there.I love you" "Shh! Rest!" I Stop you. As I walk out, I feel a part of me leaving. I rush to my car. I get in. Sobbing. Pain. I am hopeful, of a miracle. I head home. Open my door. Phone call. And I hear your mum's sobbing voice. I drop to the floor. Pain.Anger.Tears. I lie on the floor. Helpless. Knock on the door. Our other pals. We head to the hospital. We find you lying down. Still. Your hands. So cold. My heart freezes. Gone. To...