Friday, November 7, 2014

Love: Cycle of Goodbyes

The world came to light,
My heart felt alright,
I thought it was right,
But you killed the angel in me,

You took me for granted,
You betrayed my kindness,
You stubbed my soul,
You made me wicked,

We had our moments,
We had flaming chemistry,
Yes we 'HAD'

But we are done,
We are the past.

Now it is you,me...strangers
On different pages,
We can't build bridges,
We are night and day.

My love for you is dead,
Desire disgusts me,
You disgust me.
You are dead to me.


Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Someday:Blue

You say I am beautiful, is it the wine,
You think I am the best is it because I don't have a voice to whine,
You are my rock, is it you also need support,
Your eyes speak to my soul, will it forever do,
Will tomorrow hold us,will today haunt us?

When you will be sober will you still look at me this way,
When you realize I am not perfect, will you still care.
When my past comes back knocking, will you shield me from the knife,
When everyone else judges me, will you still smile at me,
Will you stand next to me, will you hold my hand ?

I ask questions,you are silent, you just smile.
I lean on you too much, you let me.
I am weaker around you, you like that.
I smile my pain out to you,
Will you listen if I cry my joy to your ears, will you be quiet?

Does it matter,
Does it have to,
Is it ok to be ok with not being ok,
Is it ok to love someone you have never seen,
I don't know or want to know.

You have taught me to love,
You have taught me to live,
You have taught me to laugh,
You have taught me that care is silence when words can't explain,
I am lucky that I love, that I am and you are.
I am lucky that it is an always than someday. Blue.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Soul: Let me touch your heart

Close to you I feel sound,
Only with you I feel safe,
You are my eyes in the dark,
My cover in the sun.

You are the light,
I am the shadow.

You judge me, not.
You embrace my inane,
You love my eyes,
You see through me,

You are the ocean.
I am the tides.

You hate seeing me sad,
Yet you don't want me near,
You want to be there for me,
Yet you close your shells.

You are the clouds.
I am the rain.

I care about you
You care about me,
You are my friend,
Am I yours?

You're my soul
Let me touch your heart.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Still: Forever Might.

I wonder if she is okay,
I hope she is,
I wonder if he treats her right,
I hope he does,
I wonder if she forgot about me,
I hope she did,
Lie,I hope she never will.

I hate that I miss her,
I hate that my love for her still grows,
I hate that I feel betrayed,
Yet,I would still take a bullet for her.
I hate myself for still loving her.
Sorry have to let that out


Nothing burns forever.




Matchstick in seconds,
Candle light in hours
Paraffin light in hours,
I hope this love won't too.

But no knife cuts deeper,
The tears dripping from my eyes 
The raindrops speak the rest I am just a weak motherfucker.
Her thoughts like an onion to my eye.

I am not ok, I have never been.
It has been years,
Will it ever change?
I cry,I think of her always.
I cant help it especially when it rains,
Can't control how I feel.
I still and might love her forever.