shepoet

I  watch me leave myself, I want to stop me but I can't, Tears washing Off memories we made, Pain burying the love we once shared. I bleed your name, I sweat the past, Let it flow down to the soil we once dominated. Let it vanish into the earth below, I touch the cuts on my face, I feel the pain,wipe blood with my palm and I smile, I wipe blood on my palm with my tongue, Salty it is.... salty is my life now. We are no more, But I can't forget you. Despite the blood I lost, You live in mine. I want you more now. I sing you songs to let you know, I tattoo your face on my heart, I am a slave of pain, A fugitive of your love. I walk off carrying you within me, I'll cry out your name to all else, I will not let anyone near you. You are mine, your love is mine. I will only let you go when You are gone, I will let you hit me till you are done, Our love, an abomination. We part always to be together again!

Why is life too complicated? Why does fate betray its believers? Can pain ever walk away from us? Will our hands be tied to sorrow always?   Y our shadow takes away the little we had left.   I feed off of the memories that never were, I wipe tears that haven’t come out, I contemplate a way to turn back time, Time, Yes time. A ghost that takes and never gives, Your shadow keeps walking away with time. I look at the horizon to at least wave at you, Gone! “How?” “Fast Enough.” “Enough? NKT!”  and pain fills me. I ask your shadow to remain behind, NO!  It crashes me. Did you both have to go, Did it have to be now? Your shadow doesn’t look back, then the horizon shallows you both. Gone! Gone too Soon! Gone with a part of us. Gone leaving us dazing at the past. Your shadow left us hurt, but you live in our hearts.

You drove a sword into my heart, Rejoiced in my pain, in my hurt, I tried to breath but you covered my nose with your hat, Locked me in a stuffy little hat, I watched you go down, I pushed you down, You wanted to see me die, You helped me on my neck a rope to tie, I watched you in pleasure, sigh, As I was about to push the chair and let my body hang high, I watched you go down, I pushed you down. I remembered you have caused me so much pain, I took the sword and stuck it into your vein Drank your blood to the last drop as you became feign Yes!You made me this inhumane! I watched you go down, I pushed you down. I wanted to Tell it to you so plain, So I Put your life in the BYE plane, You will be no more, and so will be my Vain, I'll not be empty, I'm Free from your Chain, I murdered you dear pen, I will not write Again,

I am in a cage being fed drugs, I can't say no cause I lost all I had, They look at me lose my mind and become an animal, They laugh as I eat my own flesh, I dig deep, I can't feel the pain, Help me trace myself before it's too late. I look at them in the eyes as I try to cry not, I show them my courage,my weakness, They hit me, they hurt me!Hell!they hurtle me, I am too strong for them but not for the drugs, My diary tormenting me, my pen choking me, Help me draw myself before it's too late. I ruin myself for their sake, I run myself away from helps seek, Stop it!I'm lost, Stop me I'm in a toast, Fuck!I don't know what I'm saying, I keep writing, you don't want me to stop, But I have to stop,I have to stoop. My diary bleeds, My pen stops.

Queen of the chains of flames, Flames that my heart maims, Chains wrapped to my chins, She smiles like an angel,one to be she claims, She is a devil behind the mannequin,                                                 Silent, lovely and full of games, Trust worthy to be is what she aims, She will feed you poison, no shames, She comes off as mature but alas! She is a devil behind the mannequin,   I will cry not for your blames But for this pain I feel in tames, T his pain within my minds' I will put you from me, miles, I will not look at your smiles She is a devil behind the mannequin She will fall that I am certain I will help her up to  hurtle me again Her mask will come off, it will happen Her fangs by all will be seen, She is a devil behind the mannequin

Void walks hand in hand with me, Pain serenades me with beautiful pieces Loss my pride, trapped in a cage full of emptiness Deceased     is my being, emptied in to your basket, Misery, the friend that comforts my dead soul Walk out on me, watching out for me, Cry in pleasure, rejoice in pain, A cartel of memories in a vase of thorns, I stand on nails that caress my feet Misery, the friend I trust You talk cure, I hear exacerbate You bless a ruined ran over glass rose, I fight me, Death smiles, life scowls Nobody wins, nobody loses We are winners of the losers Misery, the friend cheering on You rejoice in my pain You bite and cut through my vein You remind me how you have made of me ruin, How forever we will be on rails of vain, You rain and reign in this jail me you have rein Misery, the friend so sovereign Count, reconcile, recommend, and retreat Misery the master of my kingdom, Slavery is all I know and love to live I can’t leave my friend behind I can’t live if I leave, I can

Before I say much look at this picture... This is a prayer we know but take for granted! Reflect the on words in Our,yes OUR national Anthem!  O God of all creation Bless this our land and nation Justice be our shield and defender May we dwell in unity Peace and liberty Plenty be found within our borders. Let one and all arise With hearts both strong and true Service be our earnest endeavour And our homeland of Kenya Heritage of splendour Firm may we stand to defend.   Let all with one accord In common bond united Build this our nation together And the glory of Kenya The fruit of our labour Fill every heart with thanksgiving.

My younger sister just called me, she was crying.I thought may be she is unwell or Heart broken. I asked her what was wrong and she said "I have some questions." "Enhe,"I answered. She asked "Must a clip on TV show,Capital Talk interview or Carol Mutuko talk to a Kenyan literally dying, dies during the clip or Starved hadi we can count the ribs for Kenyans to care? Are the people dying Less humans or is it because they can't speak English, Woow Kenyans and dress fancily That we don't care?Does it mean that the tag 'refugee or Somalis' that the media has put on them make us rejoice in their time of agony?" Then she Disconnected the phone call.  I am still in wondering "IS IT???" Think About it. NOBODY DESERVES TO DIE!!!

I owe it to me for all, For I have raised me, Taught me where to and not to go, that made me this sharp, Played ans danced to my own harp, Cried and learnt from my stupid useful mishap, This is My pride parade, the flaps of my life. Played by my rules, ruled my kingdom by my cup Watched me grow in admiration off and of every and build up, Hugged Me when everything seemed not right, and shrugged off the crap, Celebrated my success,grieved over my failures and every wallop, This is my pride parade, the flaps of my life. Watched them hiccup to my mix ups as the gossip, Ignored all that blow up, told myself to hold up,get up and Clean up from the scarp  Not once did I complain or let out my carp, Look at me now, A woman whose ground you worship, This is my pride parade, The flaps of my life. Today to my Grandma I bow as I drop my cap, Thank you!You taught me me to map my way to avoid any trap, Allow me to snap for a minute, rap, yap and zap over my life's re

I love the way we talk without saying a word, The love you pierce into my heart with eyes like sword, The silence of a scorned lord on a chessboard, Checkmate to every move my heart makes anytime you roared, Love in Silence, Resilient yet so competent and complete.    Once a warlord,now you are my heart's landlord, Your heart to mine explored, cured and scored, I was broken,snored pain to the world then you came on board, Magically with feathers of love on my then miserable life's keyboard, Love in silence, resounded and restored. I want to love you out the much I can afford, Make you everything life can possibly let me you accord, Root you in me and me in you forever cored, Let the silence of you love take us forward, Love in silence, Explored as it plays a Chord. Music tying our hearts to the immortal cord, Making angels admire as they bow to this love adored, I want you in silence, I need you I'll say it so aloud, Say my name w

It's about time you forget my name, Start a new and different game, You broke my heart without shame, Made it look like a huge scam, Threw me away like a rotten stem, I was no more your once gem, Its a shame fame made you so lame, You even forgot where from we came, I wonder when this animal you became, And sadly I can't walk away, damn!! Us forever used to be your aim, We had build a love nest with a fire frame, Now you say I am the one to blame, How now! Yet my heart you had tame, Why didn't you leave when you had a claim, Why didn't you tell me, yet now you disclaim? Your friends now have for me a nickname, They exclaim on my surname and make sure me they defame. We said goodbye, yet you still live in my dream I wake up and miss you  my pond bream, You didn't care that once we were a team, Then I remember you threw me to the stream, As  you watched my heart get washed away to the scheme, Our future was lost, our past w

I walk in the darkness of your tomorrow, I talk of our happiness in sorrow, I try so had to fake or a heart to borrow, But my past oh! our past is in the burrow We played and held on to a road of love so narrow The game left on my heart a huge harrow Lost in an obsession,I watched the tears of my shadow. Tears hidden in the future of the grounds below, Living a life covered by a sea beautiful on the surface but so shallow The pain of nothing left to talk about but hallo, Helplessly, Hopelessly and Hollowly  I watched as you walked off our haven bureau, As pieces broke from my heart with each step you made leaving with me an echo We were no more but a past of passing sallow,"US" Must have been a typo  I will remember you with the tears of my shadow I feel remorse,riddles of our past reveal you had replaced me ,Really? Tied my heart with ribbons of revenge, Its fair I revert, But love rebels,it reveals how exposed you have left me, I try to repose But

Just when i was hollow, cupid shot the arrow, i had finally got an in-law, and stil being very callow, Never knew it would get me beneath the willow She soon begun to bellow, Her wedding ring hadn't made a furrow, Before we became an unbalanced seesaw, And it was out the window, I got closer to my space beneath the willow Life became very narrow, My thinking became shallow, In my heart she made a burrow, I now stand at the edge of the space beneath the willow Food became hard to swallow, Eyes, hands and skin became jaundiced yellow, I even forgot i had a fellow, And they said i had a cancer in the marrow, I finally filled my space beneath the willow.

I remember the first day I saw you in the club, I told my sister "He is cute like a cub" You looked so good smoking that cigar on the couch, You looked at me,your eyes stretched to my heart with a rare touch. And there and then my soul felt a love in chains!!! Our eyes Meet, I wanted to blush but your smile made me blain, Its like you had snailed every piece of me,I had to deign to your wish my coxswain, Your eyes and smile made my heat your ship, you arraign and sentenced  me to your jail, You deplaned and detained my preference domain to you being my main, oh man you had to be Mine. My heart racing, My eyes locked into yours,my legs shaking I felt a love in chains. You winked at me and I disdained the gesture, then you walked to me, that stopped my brain  I thought to fake a shake or take a quake inside me with a spake I had a train, But you threw all that out of my minds' window pane, I tried so hard to maintain my sane but i couldn't sustain the blood in my ve